I have the kind of dented soul that is easily fueled by jealousy disguised as anger. I despise people who seem happier than me (everyone). I can’t stand people who never seem to have any problems. If you have more money than me and therefore get to pursue your creative life without the shackles of a hideous day job then you are an asshole. And if you’re a celebrity by way of a reality TV show then you are taking up precious space in this world that could be put to better use. Admittedly I live a hard life because my brain, despite existing in my own body, is always working against me. That’s why for years I couldn’t stand The Kardashians. I never watched the show but I knew they were famous because, um, their dad kept OJ out of prison then their mom married Bruce Jenner? Where’s the work in that? Then I started watching the show this year.
I can’t recall when or why but one day I started and I couldn’t stop. I saw Khloé Kardashian as an enabling caretaker for her brother Rob whose mental health is in decline. I watched as Kourtney Kardashian struggled to raise her children while her husband’s alcoholism spiraled out of control after losing both of his parents. I watched as Kris Jenner, the matriarch of the family, tried to keep a family together after her 22 year marriage ended. The whole world has been privy to Bruce Jenner’s lifelong battle to become the person he has always felt he was meant to be and the toll it took on his entire family, especially Kylie and Kendall the youngest of the clan. And we were all invited into the doctor’s office as Kim Kardashian was told that not only would it be difficult to get pregnant again, but it would be dangerous.
I’m sorry to say this but I’ve always identified with pain more than joy and I have to admit that what tipped the scale for me is the vulnerability we were shown on this show. Kim Kardashian is considered one of the most beautiful women in the world. During one episode she told a photographer before a photo shoot that she has Psoriasis and quietly asked him to shoot around that. They then cut to her discussing how she’s very self-conscious about it so she always feels the need to mention it first before anyone notices it. It’s not the fact that she admitted to having Psoriasis (I HAVE ECZEMA SO THANK YOU KIM), it’s the fact that she said “Here is something I really don’t like about myself. I’m letting you know that this is something that bothers me. I’m not perfect.” It was the act of letting us in.
If you don’t watch their show that’s fine but what you should watch is the two part special About Bruce. In it the entire Kardashian/Jenner family is overwhelmingly supportive of Bruce Jenner transitioning to a woman. These are people that a lot of folks have written off as shallow, vain, silly, narcissistic and so on and so forth. People who are reacting to a very tough situation with nothing but love and kindness. That is no easy feat. It’s that kind of strength that made me jump on Team Kardashian and consequently Team Kim and Kanye.
Kim Kardashian’s life with Kanye is largely shielded from the show but this season we got to see a bit of her relationship with her daughter and husband. The bulk of that can be found in her Instagram feed which is filled with some PRETTY ADORABLE family moments.
Like this one…
And this one…
Oh and this one labeled “#TBT last week in Armenia! Footsie with daddy!”
Today I found out Kim and Kanye are expecting another baby and I felt as happy as I would if a close friend delivered the same news. I was happy because I knew by watching the show that it was a difficult task to accomplish. It was a hard road traveled. I was also happy because I understand that this child will probably have a very good life with two wonderful parents. Isn’t that what we want for children? Don’t we want them to be happy? As someone who comes from a broken home it’s a real treat for me to watch a child (now two!) raised in a stable, loving environment. I’m in love with their love. The Wests (and The Kardashians) have won me over.