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Existing within the true crime genre, the world of crime or hey even the world in general…can be tough. Animals can quite literally save your life. Because having a pet can be what soothes your inner savage beast, I’m asking Death Becomes Us talent to tell us about their pets, either current or from days of olde.

I asked for their pet’s name, where they got them and what their pet might think about true crime. First up is Paul Holes, who is one half of Murder Squad, telling us about Kavik his own personal wolf dog.

Jensen & Holes: The Murder Squad will be at Death Becomes Us True Crime Festival in D.C. November 9. Tickets for their show and all shows can be found at deathbecomesus.com.

Paul Holes: I once had an 120 lb. Alaskan Malamute named Kavik about midway through high school. She was named after a book I read called Kavik the Wolf Dog. This book at that age had a tremendous impact on me as I was struggling with anxiety. After reading that book I became fixated with having such a deep connection and trust with an animal. My parents recognized they needed to do something to help their son out and let me bring in this pet.

I got Kavik from a local mall pet store and it turned out she came from a puppy farm and had all sorts of behavioral issues. However, in many ways, learning how to deal with such a difficult pet helped me as a person and in my career.

Over the course of her short seven year life there were many things I could have done better. I could have been more attentive, more patient….things I still struggle with today. But even with my immature ways back then, in retrospect, Kavik left her mark on me.

I still remember the day my mom called me at work to tell me Kavik had died. I left work and had to get her to the county’s pet disposal center. I still remember the crude and barbaric process I went through in my final moments with her. I wish to this day I had known how to better handle those final moments with more dignity to such a beautiful animal.  It’s those moments in life that as one gets older become so important.

Here’s a picture of me and Kavik. Please ignore the 1980s feathered hair (God I wish I still had that much hair) and the mustache. Probably the too short shorts as well. Anyways, Kavik would have loved the current fascination with true crime! Her favorite true crime book would have been The Sleeping Lady by Robert Graysmith of Zodiac fame. This was a story about David Carpenter who was killing along the trails on Mt. Tamalpais and surrounding areas. Kavik loved to be out on the trails and would have sniffed out this killer in no time. In fact this was the very first true crime book about a case I personally ever read, coming on the heels of reading Sexual Homicide by Ressler, Douglas, and Burgess.